cHrissy

How Long Haven't I Been Posting?

2008-04-22T15:13:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I don't know what to blog on and nothing interesting in my life. Life had been dull and boring for me. Everyday is the same. Waking up in the morning to studying to sleeping... What can be so different for me? Oh man, life is a straight line now. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

New Semester Started

2008-03-09T23:31:00.009+08:00

The new school term had started last week and I feel like I am rushing again. Oh man... I really hate this feeling. It sucks big time. Seriously, I really dont understand why Singaporean had to rush like mad, or literally most people in the world. Oh well, it's just the way of life huh... I feel like I am actually doing my blog for my assignment. Never mind, I will start it next week.

I brought a box of honey stars after munching on Chermaine's honey stars during a tutorial class. And I am hooked on them now. Eating them for breakfast and munching them as and when I am craving for snacks. Think I will have to get another packet again. Honey stars are seriously addictive.
Lovey dear and I went to Vivo City this afternoon. We went there to get Russy a heartbeat and Dear got a monkey for me at the build-a-bear workshop. His name is Benny. He is so adorable right. Benny got a heartbeat and so does Russy. Russy got a new bear boxers though. These two babies of mine are so so my sweethearts for now. Lovey dear is gonna get jealous cos I am doting on Benny and Russy more now. Wahaha.... Well then, I needa get to bed soon. Else a naggy lovey dear will say he got a panda for his darling. Good night everyone.

Seriously....

2008-02-26T17:48:00.002+08:00

How long have I not been posting??? Dont really know what to post and say though. Havent been the best of time to pen, or rather type out my thoughts. Oh well, save it for another day.

Back To Reality

2008-01-17T18:06:00.000+08:00

I am back~!!! Back from the Bangkok trip.. It was a excellent trip. Had so much fun with lovey, Justin, and Jennifer. Lots of shopping.... I think the four of us bought so much stuff. Oh oh, the things there are so cheap, as compared to Singapore. I feel the drain in my pocket when I came back and spent money on things.

Look at all the stuff I had bought. Nah, not everything on the bed are mine. Some belonged to Lovey. We just placed all the items on the bed and took a picture. Let's see, I bought 2 pairs of shoes, 4 pairs of slippers, 2 dresses, 4 pairs of shorts, 6 T-shirts, 2 bags, a wind chime, 3 pairs of toe socks, a Disney Winnie-the-Pooh bowl and local products. Crazy right.... I think I spent about S$250 on all these. And I am so satisfied with myself. No need to shop for new clothes for CNY anymore.
This picture was taken from the plane on the flight to Thailand. The plane had just took off from land and we were at cloud level. Still could see land though. Worth taking the seat by the window for someone who had phobia of heights.Let's see... Had room service on a afternoon. Both Lovey and I were so tired from a 3 hours shopping at the weekend market. It was so damn huge and not to mention, there was so many people and the weather was hot. So we decided to head back and call for food. The waiter came in pushing a trolley with all the food. The next thing I know, there was a table in the room. I was expecting the food to be placed on the table in our room and not the trolley to turn into a table.Oh oh... Look at this... Can you tell what it is??? It's an elephant made out of face towel. Not something that you will get to see everyday. I think the most common one is the swam. Cool right, the hotel even sells the book on how to turn towels into different kinds of animals.
This picture was taken on the flight back. It was when the plane landed and passengers were disembarking. The four of us were the last to get off. But before that, we took pictures in the cockpit with the co-pilot. I think when I asked the steward if we could take pictures in the cockpit, the rest of them were so shocked. They were even more stunned when co-pilot agreed. The co-pilot looked so young. Although his nationality was Thai, his English was so fluent. We were shocked to hear him speak at first. Imagine cHrissy as a pilot.........
Finally, there are my dearest travel mates for the trip with the air-stewardess. I am so glad that I went on this trip with them. Even the air-stewardess was our flight when we flew to Thailand. A great trip overseas on a plane after so long. Back to studying for exams in two weeks.

Away for 4 Days At Bangkok

2008-01-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

Here I am at the Singapore Changi Airport. Heading to Bangkok, Thailand in 3 hours time. So excited about the trip. Gonna shop and shop and shop. Wahaha... Missing all my dragon boat trainings. Wahaha...

Managed to finish my assignment on time. Nice nice Chermaine is going to hand it up for me. *mUacks* Chermaine, cHrissy will buy you nice nice stuff. Oh, there's another assignment due on monday and I will only be back on Sunday. So my all time wonderful dear dear had agreed to carry my lappie for me. He said "Just in case you got the mood to do work." Wahaha.... Oh well, I hope I have the mood to complete it. Else it will be super bad and tiring. I hate doing assignments.

So I will be away for 4 days with lovey dear, Justin and Jenn. :) I will have lots of fun and sleep and play before the big day of exams.

cHrissy's 2008 resolutions

2008-01-04T17:33:00.000+08:00

Well, it's day 4 of the new year. Once again, everyone is out to set their resolutions for the year. Not surprisingly, I am also out to set mine too. Which of course, it will be the same as last year though. So here goes....

Have more self-discipline, determination and perservance to lost all the extra fats in my body. Keep up with the long long process. Maybe I can go swimming, running, etc...
Save up more more more money. I am so finacially tight tight tight... By end of this year, I must save at least S$2000.
Spend more more more time with my family. This resolution had been on for the past few years. But then I had never been keeping up with it. Why? Maybe it's time for my family to resolute to spending more time with each other.
Stop procrastinating over matters.
Have enough sleep and exercise and tasks to acomplish.
Study harder for this year...

All being said and nothing much changed from my past resolutions, I hope that I can achieve them better this year.

Review of cHrissy's 2007 resolutions

2007-12-31T12:16:00.000+08:00

Once again, time flies and it's the end of one good long year. Erm... Not exactly long cos it passed in a blink of eye. Anyway, it's also time for me to review my resolutions for this year. Let's see...

For the first resolution --> Lost all the extra fats in my body (which I think it requires alot of self discipline, determination and perservance). Nah... Only lost some but not all. This losing of extra fats resolution is gonna be carried to the new year. It will be a long long long process.
Second --> Save up more money... Nah... Been spending money like crazy. I should declare bankruppt though. Carried forward to next year too...
Third --> Spend more time with my family and loved ones. Had been spending a lot of time with lovey, but not with my family. Maybe this resolution is half achieved. Then again, I am spending so much time with the community and neglected family. Argh...
Fourth --> Learn to love myself more. What I mean is getting a better lifestyle, which is getting enough sleep = 8 hours, excerising = swimming, etc... Havent been loving myself alot. Not sleeping enough cos only got 6 hours of sleep a night. Not been exercising regularly.
Fifth, last but not least --> Study harder and score distinctions in my duration of degree. I must perservance and motivate myself to work harder to get the honours invitation. Ok, maybe this resolution, I achieved. Got a few distinctions during this year of semesters.

So.... Overall, my resolutions for 2007 are like half achieved. But then again, I had a great year. Friends had been the best support ever, family had been caring and dear had been loving. Once again, I am so blessed for 2007.

Coffee Relaxation

2007-12-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

Had coffee with lovey at Starbucks and we sat there for 4 hours. Why such a long time? It's because we were tired and wanted to find somewhere to sit. And once we sat down, we decided not to move. And so... We began taking picutres and writing notes. Wahaha... It's kinda like a waste of time but then again, it's good to just sit and relax abit.

cHrissy Haven't Been Feeling Good...

2007-12-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

Had a fever the weekend before last at the temperature of 38.6 degrees. Think it had been a while since I last had one, say like a few donkey years ago. Dad even thought and suspected that I got the dengue. But luckily, I did not. Had been crossing my fingers for that. The past few days, I had bad headaches. They were so painful that I felt the worst time of year was the headaches. Still having slight one now though. But had decided to come online to do some decent work again.

It's the time of the year to spend loads of money on presents again. I think Christmas is the time to spend money on gifts for loved ones because it is the only time where I do not need to remember any birthdays and also to make up for forgotten birthdays presents. Heehee... So yah, I had spent like lots of cash on presents already and still haven't got all of them yet. I am going so broke again.

Anyway, Estee is back from Australia and I went shopping with her last Tuesday. As always, she was late. Haiz... Estee Ng, when will you learn to meet me on time? Ok, that is not the point. The point is I shopped at Taka while waiting for her and guess what... I actually watching the Sesame Street Holiday show at the center stage. It was really fun though. Hearing all the Christmas songs, dances, and etc... Felt like a kid all over again. The excitement of getting presents and eating all the candy canes. Wahaha..

So in the holiday mood now. And then come Wednesday with two tests and the "so-not-listening" to class attitude. So Samantha, Carol, and I were playing with our cameras during counselling class. And I took a pictures of my stationery.

Then for the whole afternoon till night, I was so into photo taking. Took pictures of the food that I had with Lovey after my night tutorial. Yeah, cHrissy has nothing better to do.... NOT... She got lots of things to do, just that she is procrastinating again. Think she needs more sleep before her energy level is recharged. No time no time to recharge. Just gotta run on low batt first. Alright then... When cHrissy's batt is fully charged, she will be back.

I Wanna Declare For Leave

2007-11-24T11:56:00.001+08:00

So badly need a break. Need to take leave for everything. For studies and for YEC. Falling sick already, or should I say I am already sick. Having the blocked nose and a really sore throat. So painful.

I think I should take medical leave instead. Should go to the doctor and ask her for a long long sick leave. Need to sleep lots lots. And I know, need to drink lots lots of water. But then again, haix... I dont like to visit the doctor and moreover, I dont like taking medicine. Always makes me feel sleepy after taking them.

So many things to do, so little time again... Having so little sleep again. Haiz.... All the studying for 8 weeks non-stop. Hating the assignments and the researches. The amount of books and proposals I have to read, I really think I am going to suffer from permanent head damage. I know I am so complaining again. Haiz...

Busy Busy Busy

2007-11-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

Mid of November now and I had not like blogged for the longest time again. Yeah, Chermaine was like asking me when I am actually going to update. But seriously, I dont have much to update about. Been so caught up with so many YEC stuffs and also the school work is piling up. Life seriously sucks now. So many things to do. Then again, I love the feeling of being busy on one hand but on the other hand, I havent been putting my best in everything. Procrastinating again. Haiz...

Having some downs with lovey dear for the past week. Think it's because of my mood swings. Bad bad swings I should say. Been making him feel bad too.. It's the stress, I think. But again, no good reason to upset lovey too. So dear, I am very sorry. And I know, no sorries from me, else it's a kiss right. Anyway, thanks for being with me through all my bad swings.

And yes, it's John's class today and as always I am not listening to him. His lectures are very boring. It was like not alot of people were listening. Vivian wasnt even listening too. He was like talking and crapping with me and Chermaine. Vivian was saying that it's better to read and study on our own where we learn better than to listen to a "not so good" lecturer. And I am so hating John Tan for his stupid protests. Waste of my school fees. Argh...

Better go do some studying now. Will bloggie again when the mood is right. :)

Lovey Dear Is Back

2007-10-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

After 16 days of being away from home and his sweetie darling, he is finally back from the Australia exercise. Landed say 4 hours ago, I think he should be home sleeping by now. Havent seen him for the past 2 weeks. But time flies, so even when I am having my one week break with him, I was still enjoying my holidays with friends. And not to mention the workload from YEC, I am so complaining about it but still doing it nonetheless.

The new October semester started yesterday. So far I only had 2 lectures. One was totally boring and I wasnt listening and the other was humorous. I think I am going to enjoy attending the psychometric testing lecture. Dr Foo is so funny. His class was interesting this morning. Hopefully it stays that way, else I will find studying that module a drag. And one more thing, I spent S$189 on my textbooks. The number of books bought:3. Money spent on 3 modules: S$4500. Time spent in classes per week: 18 hrs. Knowledge gained: Priceless. For everything else, there's MasterCard. *wahahaha.... lame...* I know, just trying to crap abit here.... So much for study stress...

*Sigh* I have got a full day class tomorrow starting from 9am all the way till 10pm. Talk about PHD, what Dr Foo referred to as Permanent Head Damage. Information overload. Mentally drained. So if any of you need me to reply as emails, messages, anything that requires me to think. You will have to talk to the hand. Gotta to sleep early. Need all the strength and energy and attention for tml classes. And I wont be seeing Lovey Dear till Thursday.... *Complaints*

One Week of Break

2007-10-26T14:53:00.000+08:00

Today is friday. 2 more days and the one week of break will be over. New semester is starting on monday. So sian sian. Haiz... How I wish I have a long break. Well, my one week didnt go too bad. I mean, lovey dear is not in singapore and I have the whole week for myself. Although at times, it will bored to stay home the whole day and do nothing but everything went fine for me.

Had a belated birthday surprise celebration for Chermaine on tuesday at Gelare. Had my waffle and 3 scopes of ice-cream of banana walnut, wild strawberry and tramisu. *yUm yUm* Went out with Pingz and Gerlynn on wednesday for a little walk walk at Marina Square and had dinner at Billy Bombers. Had my long-never-have cookies and cream shake. Think I really put on some serious weight this one week. Been having all the sweet stuffs.

Oh... I had also been a good gal by cleaning up my room and packing away some books. I think I seriously need another book case/shelf. No more space for new and incoming books. Haiz.... Been "booking" for the past few months. I am going to expo for the MPH book fair later with my aunts. See... I am "booking" again. Really really in need of another shelf.

5 more days before Lovey comes home. Cant wait for him to get back. Been missing him so much. Missing his hugs and kisses. But I am still fine without him. :P However that does not mean that I dont need him here with me.

One Week of Well Deserved Rest

2007-10-18T13:25:00.000+08:00

After 12 weeks of "sufferings", the exams are finally over. I am so getting my well-deserved rest. Gonna sleep in every morning... Yawnz... Speaking of which, I am feeling tired already. Gonna go for my nap soon. :)

I am missing my lovey here... He is at Australia now for an exercise. Gone for 4 days now and 14 days to go. I am so so thinking of him. But then I am having a week without him, so I can do much more things for myself. Heehee... There's pros and cons to this.

Anyway, this one week is gonna be rest time for me. Lots and lots and tons and tons of sleep, and I am so gonna pack my room again to keep again my textbooks and notes and make space for new olds in a week times when the new semester starts.

But I am gonna start again, I AM MISSING MY LOVEY DEAR~!!!

Procrastinating By Watching "Evan Almighty"

2007-09-26T18:45:00.000+08:00

Supposed to be doing my reports and revise my Friday's test, but I was spending my time watching the "Evan Almighty" DVD. It is not as bad as what everyone said. Though it is different from "Bruce Almighty" and it isn't humorous, it brings out a certain life lesson.

ARK = A Random Act of Kindness

It is really nice if someone makes your day by doing something nice for you. It is especially so true for me. Even something small, like sending me a sms to tell me nice things will also make my day. Well, it pays off right. If you make someone happy today, you will feel happy yourself and may even have a feeling of satisfaction. So make someone happy everyday and it will build on your happiness level too.

My Strawberry Cake

2007-09-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

I know I am back tracking here, but I just wanna say Lovey Dear is such a wonder to me. 2 weeks ago, he went for his medical appointment and after which came to school to fetch me. And he got me a strawberry cake. *Yum yum* My favourite... I was so loving my cake.

Lovey Dear is so sweet to me... Dear, more strawberry cake pls... Heehee... I am having my strawberry craving again. Think it's my exams craving coming along :P Oh ya, I am going to reject any of you if you ask me out for entertainment, leisure and even dinner from now till mid of next month. Exams and assignments are here... :((

Stressed~!!!

2007-09-20T23:17:00.001+08:00

Exams are coming in less than 3 weeks time and I haven't been preparing for my modules. Argh... It is horrible. Rushing for all my assignments are not a good thing to deal with. Anyone wanna earn extra cash. I can pay you to do my work for me... Nah... Just kidding...

Also in 3 weeks time, lovey will be going to Australia for his exercise. Think I am gonna miss him so much. I am even missing him lots now. Wat am I gonna do if he's away???? Sigh... But I think during that period of time, exams will be on my mind more than missing lovey. Anyway, Russy will be back with me. Oh, if you dont know who or what Russy is, he's a toy bear that I got for lovey for his birthday. Russy is from Build-A-Bear Workshop, the shop at Vivo. Russy is such a adorable darling, isn't he. Oh oh, he's wearing a bear boxers... Wahaha...

Oh ya, been feeling down lately these few days. So if my posts are all very emoy, you all should know why. But then again, thanks for all the concerning and small little talks. I really appreciate it. :)

Indescribable Feeling

2007-09-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

I really dunno how I should feel now, but I'm pissed, tired, irritated, lost for words, hurt. Everything~!!! Feeling so confused again. So many things bottomed up in my heart again. I really feel that one day I am going to explode like a volcano and it will cause major destruction.

I truly hope that people around me will be more open and honest with me. Seriously saying that if any of you have anything against me, just tell me straight in the face and not behind my back. Talk to me if you feel that there are things I can improve on. Talk to me if there are things you wan me to change. Talk to me if you feel that I deserve a slap in the face and wake up my idea. I really dun mind you slapping me. Just talk to me.... That is why I need family and friends around me to remind, guide and advise me when I am not in the correct path and not just say things behind my back and complain to others.

I know I havent been putting my best in everything I do, but still I will try to. That is to say if you were to speak to me about it. So many commitments in life, but I still know what my priorities are. Let me know if I havent been performing as what I was expected of and definitely, I will do my best and commit time into doing it. Although the things you say will hit me hard, but at least I know that I will learn lessons from it and improve. Talking behind my back wont help me improve on things. Telling me straight in the face, will. Though at times, I will be hurt, but this is a process and learning stage I have to experience. So dear family and friends, if you think that it's difficult to spit on my face, then continue to talk/complain behind my back about me. Else be my nicest family and friends and guide/advise/talk to me and lead me back to where I started straying off my intended path.

Oh, and one more thing. If you are stressed or pissed with any other thing that has nothing to do with me, I am NOT your punching bag. Moreover, I am just a human. "To err is human." I have got feelings too, you know.......

Panic Mode

2007-09-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

Exams are in a month's time and I had not even started revising for any of the modules. Feeling so screwed for everything. Had a article critique presentation and I had not done well. I was not even prepared for the presentation. Did last minute work again. So typical of me. Always waiting till the last minute.

Think I cant procrastinate anymore. Gotta start reading the textbooks and doing my reports. Gosh~!!! Time is passing so quickly. Wishing I am "Bruce Almighty" now, got the power in my hands. Oh well, I am dreaming again.

24 hours is not enough...

2007-09-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

I need more hours in a day. This way, I can do everything I want and still get enough sleep for one day. Why do we only have 24 hours? Anyway, enough of complaining. Falling sick again, the blocked and fluie nose is back. Argh~!!! Estee, thanks for your care. Missing you lots here in Singapore. When are you coming back? I need you here, the guys were all bullying me when we met up for a gathering. I NEED YOU~!!!

Went for Army Open House with Chermaine yesterday and the weather wasn't that good. It was drizzling and both of us got caught in the rain. The thing is that we really wanna fall really ill to get MC to miss class. In the end, we both attended class this morning.

Oh well, we are not fated to get a MC. Tml is a long day. Gotta have enough sleep now before the flu worsen. Nitez everyone~!!! And drink more water, the weather is not very friendly these few days.

No Voice

2007-09-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

I am so sick... Actually not sick lah, just having a very painful throat. It's so sore that I dont feel like talking, that is why I got no voice. Haiz~!!! It's horrible.... So painful... Been drinking lots of water. Tried honey water too. Nothing helps. I kept running to the toilet lots of time today. The feeling sucks.

Now I know why I got that sudden feel of wanting to post the previous entry. Now it's all explained. Eeee... The throat is feeling so pain now. Drinking more water too... :''( *sOb sOb*

Lovey dear celebrated his 21st birthday at camp yesterday. How sad can it be spending with the army open house? Cant help it either. Things cant get worst and everything can be better. Well, hang in there, dear. It'll be over soon. And I am missing you lots.

Just Don't Feel Like Studying

2007-08-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh~!!! I just dont feel like studying. I dont feel like doing any assignments. I dont wanna do anything. I just wanna stay home, do nothing and sleep for the whole day. I am feeling so tired. Feeling so so tired, it feels like I dont have enough rest and sleep. I feel so restless everyday. I just wanna lay in bed all day and hug my paradise. And also maybe in lovey dear's arms.

Lol~!!! cHrissy, stop daydreaming. You know you cant do anything all year around. The reality is so cruel. You have to continue studying and earn lots lots money. Wahaha... So money-faced.... Anyway, I am missing lovey dear so much. Wont be spending his birthday with him cos he had to be down for army open house. Haiz... Poor thing... Just hope that he will have a great time.

Oh ya, thanks justin for his little comment. Really appreciated it. It's nice to receive little comments and notes from friends who cared. And I am really proud of myself to hang in there and pull through all the many many sleepless and fruitless nights and sleeps and all the long lessons and rushing assignments. Jia you~!!!

cHrissy on her medical appointment

2007-08-21T15:45:00.000+08:00

Been to AH for a dental visit yesterday. Had the head and senior consultant of the dental department to review my case. Wahaha... Like as though my case is very serious. But nope, luckily it is not so bad. Me told Dr Wu that the problem arise after the surgical removal of my left wisdom tooth. She said that it was probably due to me opening my mouth too wide and too long for the surgery and the left facial muscle is swollen. She gave me LA and another injection to reduce the swell. She also said that my jaw joint is very stiff and told me to do jaw exercises. I am unsure about the actual problem though.

But was doing some research on my own regarding this oral problem and guess what I found. Dental Health: Temporomandibular Disorders (TMD)

Temporomandibular disorders (TMD) occur as a result of problems with the jaw, jaw joint and surrounding facial muscles that control chewing and moving the jaw.

What Is the Temporomandibular Joint?
The temporomandibular joint is the hinge joint that connects the lower jaw (mandible) to the temporal bone of the skull, which is immediately in front of the ear on each side of your head. The joints are flexible, allowing the jaw to move smoothly up and down and side to side and enabling you to talk, chew, and yawn. Muscles attached to and surrounding the jaw joint control the position and movement of the jaw.

What Causes TMD?
The cause of TMD is not clear, but dentists believe that symptoms arise from problems with the muscles of the jaw or with the parts of the joint itself. Injury to the jaw, temporomandibular joint, or muscles of the head and neck – such as from a heavy blow or whiplash – can cause TMD. Other possible causes include: -- Grinding or clenching the teeth, which puts a lot of pressure on the TMJ
-- Dislocation of the soft cushion or disc between the ball and socket
-- Presence of osteoarthritis or rheumatoid arthritis in the TMJ
-- Stress, which can cause a person to tighten facial and jaw muscles or clench the teeth

What Are the Symptoms of TMD?
People with TMD can experience severe pain and discomfort that can be temporary or last for many years. More women than men experience TMD and TMD is seen most commonly in people between the ages of 20 and 40.
Common symptoms of TMD include:
-- Pain or tenderness in the face, jaw joint area, neck and shoulders, and in or around the ear when you chew, speak or open your mouth wide --> I have this
-- Limited ability to open the mouth very wide --> I have this too
-- Jaws that get "stuck" or "lock" in the open- or closed-mouth position -->Luckily not for this
-- Clicking, popping, or grating sounds in the jaw joint when opening or closing the mouth (which may or may not be accompanied by pain) --> Nope not this too.
-- A tired feeling in the face --> Not this
-- Difficulty chewing or a sudden uncomfortable bite – as if the upper and lower teeth are not fitting together properly --> I feel this at times
-- Swelling on the side of the face --> Left side is abit swollen

For more, you can go onto this webbie (http://www.webmd.com/oral-health/guide/temporomandibular-disorders). And I certainly hope I am not suffering from this oral disorder.

I Am Tired...

2007-08-20T11:32:00.000+08:00

After a sleepless night, I felt so bad. So so tired. Didn't get to sleep on friday cos of PAddles. Luckily for us, PAddles was a success. The President and Minister were very happy about it. I have to thank those who showed much concern for me during PAddles. Bad things happened but I am glad that you all are there for me, supporting me.

Going for a medicial appointment at AH this afternoon. Gotta check the jaw out. Although it's no longer hurting like how it did last week, it still hurts when I yawn. Oh well, will see what the dentist say later. Hopefully it is nothing serious.

Now it's time for me to get enough rest before the whole week of lectures and tutorials start. I am going to do my assignments. Lovey dear kept reminding me to do it soon. Then again, he always reminds me to do all my assignments. Gotta start it before going out of the house. It's freezing cold now after the rain. *Cold cold*

How Long Has It Been?

2007-08-14T15:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I know... I haven't exactly been updating for weeks now. There's so much to do and so little time. And also not to mention me procrastinating at all the small little things.

The past few weeks had been busy preparing for POP Culture 2. The event was a success and everyone truly enjoyed themselves. Not to mention that Defence Minister Teo was amazed by the event. Heard many good comments from lots of people. Minister Teo even brought it up during the Istana Gala dinner. Seems like the YEC had made a name for itself again. Now many people are looking forward to POP Culture 3 next year.

This weekend will be PAddles' turn. The whole week had been busy with all PAddles' stuff. Luckily I am not in the main planning comm, else I will be super super tired. Got 2 assignments to complete by next week and I haven't even started on one. Haiz~!!! Procrastinating again...

My jaw had been hurting very badly again for the past 2 weeks. This time, the pain is so unbearable that it hurts till the ear. Went to see the doctor this morning and told her about my condition. She said that it might be the nerves or something and referred me to a dentist at AH. For now, she gave me a muscle relaxer pill to relax the cheek muscle. She said that my left cheek looked abit swollen. Yeah, I know that too. Been having difficulties talking and especially eating. Cant open my mouth too wide else the pain will come.

Anyway, dun worry about me. I will be just fine. But if one day any of you dont see or hear from me, it will mean smth bad had happened and do take some time off to call my home or check with each other. Take care for now~!!!

Is it me or....

2007-07-23T14:55:00.000+08:00

That particular email that I received from a particular person hit me hard? Had been complaining about this person since god knows when... And I replied him, he shot me a email that had made me feel like I am the bad person here. He made it sound like I am accusing him of not doing his work as the event chairperson and that I am finding faults with him. Argh~!!! I have enough of this. Next time, thou shall not reply to his email anymore. *pIssed*

But I am glad that I am not the only one who is feeling this way in the committee. Some or rather most people are feeling the same too. Just that like what Ed said "All too busy to entertain him". Ed is trying to imply that I am very free here. Hahaha... No lah... Just joking. I am not very free hor. I just dont wanna be pushed ard and be asked to do work for someone who dont even put in the effort. If you are putting in effort to do something and need my help, I will gladly be of favour to you.

Enough said, I just wanna vent my frustration and anger and emo out. Been feeling so bad about this stupid idiot thingy. But thanks to Ed, Asilah, Pingz and lovey dear to talk me out of this. Else I will still dwell on it like forever.

I Am Preparing For....

2007-07-13T18:30:00.000+08:00

My gramps' death. I am not saying that my gramps had passed away. Choy... But it is more of like preparing myself to accept that she is old and she had been feeling faint and weak and she at times will pant alot. And most of all, she might just leave me and my family. Gramps herself is also preparing for the day when she will leaves us. She had been going to the temple more often to pray. She had her will written. She had brought a tablet space and a space for her urn. She accepts and prepares for this stage of life.

Oh my... At the thought of this, I feel like crying again. Almost every night for the past 2 weeks, when I lied on my bed and think of this matter, I would always cry. I know everyone have to pass through this phase in life. I know how difficult this phase will be and am preparing myself for it, so when the day really comes, I will not be hit so hard in the face. But having said that, I think I will still be hit very very harshly.

I had been very close to gramps as I was the first grandchild of the family, she dote on me alot. Took care of me when I was just a baby. Mum was always like complaining to me that when I was very young and was sleeping in the baby cot, nobody could rock the cot except for gramps. Whenever mum tried to take over from gramps to rock me, I would immediately be awaken and cried and would only settle down when gramps continued the rocking.

Saying how much gramps dote on me, the week when I had exams, I called her and told her I wanted to eat ice-cream. Her reply was "Come over to my place, then we go over to vivo city and I treat you to Ben & Jerry's." That's how much gramps dote on me. Always pampering and loving me. I cant imagine the day when she is no longer with me physically but only mentally in my memories.

Media's Portrait on Body Image

2007-07-09T16:25:00.000+08:00

After being in this psychology class, I realised that my class had been discussing alot of issues regarding the world around us. Say, for example, recently Channel U is advertising for "Hey! Gorgeous". This time is the 2nd time that they are doing this show. Remembered the very first time when they did this show, I was still studying in NYP and my union clique was crazy about it. We even posted each other's pictures and voted for each other online. Thinking back on this, I realised that we had been playful and really confident about ourselves and how we looked like and didnt cared about how others would look at us.

But now everyone is so self-conscious. Advertisments are everywhere and they portrait that being slim is the in-thing. Models with the "perfect" figure are all over the place. My classmate, Moses, was like saying, as quoted: "From their website: 'Incorporating online voting with reality voting, Hey! Gorgeous is a talent scouting programme that scours Singapore's tertiary institutions for students blessed with great genes.' What GENES?! You mean, those without the so called "looks" have lousy genes!?"

The media is senting this message of having good looks is the key to everything. But it really does not matter how you look as long as you have the BMI healthy range. It does not matter if you have got flabby arms or a huge tummy as long as you are healthy and eating right. Because of this stupid media that portraits that being slim and skinny is "good", many youths (both guys and gals) are suffering from eating disorders. Many are dieting, deprieving themselves from food. This should not be the way. Eating disorders are affecting many many people today.

DOVE came up with a campaign for real beauty. They feature many ladies with high self-esteem and self-confidence. I really respect and admire those ladies who stood out and love themselves and their bodies. It really is not how people look at you for your looks. I am not saying that you can be unkept and untidy and dirty. But it is the image that you create for yourself, the way you carry yourself and the feel for both your physical and mental state.

The Start of Semester 4

2007-07-03T13:37:00.000+08:00

One week had passed so quickly that another week arrived. There goes my one week of holdiays. Had spent my time fruitfully last week. Went swimming 3 days straight with lovey dear, cleaned and packed my always messy room, and met up with some good friends. Been quite relaxing for a week of holidays. Finally got enough rest and sleep. But somehow, I am still feeling very drained out and tired.

Anyway, for the next three months, there gonna be more rushes again. But dun think will be like the last three months. I am only taking 2 modules, so I think it should be quite relaxing. Only got classes on tuesdays, wednesdays and fridays. So if any of you (--> pIngz and gerlynn) wanna ask me out, can do so on mondays and thursdays.

Finally, I am so not looking forward to starting classes. I need more breaks and a long holiday. Ok, I know... Me and my complains....

Behavior Reinforcement

2007-07-02T11:17:00.000+08:00

A group of marine scientists once conducted a series of experiments with a tank full of barracuda. At first, they fed these fish their favourite food, live mackerel, every day for a month. Of course, the aggresive fish would devour the mackerel in an instant. Then the scientists placed a clear glass panel between the barracuda and the bait fish. As soon as the mackerel were lowered into the tank, the barracuda immediately moved toward them, smashing their noses on the clear glass.

The predators continued to attempt to get past the glass until, finally, they realised their efforts were futile. Then the scientists removed the glass and allowed the mackerel to freely swim. The mackerel, of course, stayed behind the perceived wall. And the barracuda, with nothing standing betweem them and their prey, contentedly stayed on their side of the tank.

The wall was gone. The barrier had been removed, but the fish still stayed in their newly created "cage". All the food the barracuda could stomach was just waiting to be eaten, but was never touched. The false barrier of past hurt kept the fish from making any move at all.

And that's just like us, isn't it? Though a life without limits await us, we often allow past hurts and mistakes to keep us from taking full advantage of it. We got to learn to take our first step out despite the many failures we meet each time on our journey towards success.

Exceprt from 'Life Unlimited: When average just isn't enough' by John Bolin.

Great Swim

2007-06-26T22:47:00.001+08:00

Went swimming with lovey dear this morning. Cant say it's morning cos we reached the pool like 11.55am. It's already like noon lor. Been a while since I had gone swimming. Felt really great. The pool water was really freezing, as it was raining very heavily the night before. I even thought I wont have the chance to go swimming today.

But the weather turned out well today. It was bright and sunny. Swam for about 2 hours then went up to take my shower. Once again, I had sunburn. Argh!!! Pain pain... Yeah, I am complaining here and I deserve it because I didnt put on sunblock. But it is not like me to do so. The only thing I apply is suntan lotion, not sunblock.

Here I am sitting and feeling the heat under my skin. Feeling hot hot hot... Going to take a quick cold shower before heading to bed. And I am keeping up the habit of swimming.

It Is Really Nice...

2007-06-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

To receive comments from friends who came into my bloggie and left me notes. Really appreciate the thoughts. To tell the truth, I enjoy reading the comments. To me, it shows that my friends cared for me and are interested to know how I am getting on in life.

All the words and sentences left for me brighten up my day. The encouragements spur me on to do better in life. The reminders that tell me to keep my promises. I really feel blessed with people like that around me. That is why whenever I check my email, I really hope to see lots of comments for my bloggie. But with that said, I don't expect my dearest friends to come type me a comment everyday. Afterall, it is the thought that really counts.

Just Came Back

2007-06-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

From my gramps' place. Been quite some time since I had been to visit her. Had a great dinner with her and aunt jesscia. Gramp hadn't been feeling so well these few months. Been complaining of headaches, feeling dizzy, etc....

With old age comes many illnesses. I think I mus go visit my gramp more often. Maybe go visit her every time after school. cHrissy, keep your promise.

Sudden Thought On My Mind

2007-06-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

Finished....

2007-06-22T10:18:00.000+08:00

All my exam papers, so that means this semester ended~!!! Yeah~!! One week of holidays... One week of fun and rest... I am so glad that this semester ended. Everything seemed to be a rush for the last three months. Hopefully next semester wont be so rushing and I would have more time to complete my assignments and everything. I will only be taking two modules.

After last wed when I had two papers straight, I lied on my bed upon reaching home. Was feeling so mentally drained that I didn't wanted to do anything. After watching tv, me headed straight for dreamland. Didn't wake up till 1pm the next day. Speak about tired. Can't even opened my eyes to look at the time. But got up eventually to revise for the last paper.

Next whole week will be resting, shopping, relaxing, everything nice which I didn't do for the last three months. For now, I am gonna pack and clean up my room to prepare for the next semester. Gotta clear and make space for more new books.

One More Paper

2007-06-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

I think I really used up almost all of my brain cells. Sat in front of the computer and just stared at what I should blog about. Had two papers in a row and I am mentally exhausted. Just had the brain paper this afternoon. Before the paper, I was like cramping all the information into the mind. After the paper, it seemed like everything was forgotten. Had a memory lapped...

Now, I just need to sleep. Had a good rest before cramping for the next paper on friday. Arh~!!! Keeping my fingers crossed for the stats paper then. So many formulas and so many steps to remember. My brain will be dead soon....

Oh ya, I know you all had been coming to my bloggie and reading all my entries. But it would be real nice if you all can leave me a note or a message when you drop by. I will be super delighted to receive the comments.

Lovey dear, I miss you~!!!

Brainy

2007-06-18T17:15:00.000+08:00

Was at Esplanade and saw this display of the brain and I decided to take a photo of it. It was so approriate for this week of mine. Exams, exams and more exams. Studying the brain module this semester and found out that I really learnt more about our brain. So many terms, parts and functions. I am so gonna exhaust lots of brain cells for studying the brain. So corny....

Had a great birthday celebration during the weekend but now it's back to mugging for papers. And I still so want my strawberry cake which I didn't get for my birthday. Well, me and my complaining brain...

Officially A Lady...

2007-06-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

That was what Jin Wen wrote when he left me a comment on friendster. This sentence really made a difference to me. Suddenly felt the term "lady" on my shoulders. Turned into an adult over night. I am now responsible for myself. No parents' signature required to sign on form, no parents' consent to go overseas with school. It's all me, myself and I.

Had a normal day as usual. Nothing much for a 21st birthday. Went out for dinner with lovey dear at city hall. Developed a few pictures out for yesterday's celebrations. And I had that craving for strawberry cake. Walked the whole of Marina Square, Suntec City and Esplanade. Only TCC Marina Square had it, but I didnt wanna walk into it because there was no diners. In the end, had fondue with lovey dear at Esplanade. Been quite some time since I had it with Gerlynn and Pingz.

Mummy made 5 red eggs for me. So nice of her.... Thanks mum~!!! And I got lots of ang baos from my maternal family and lovey's mum. I suddenly feel so rich out of the sudden. Ok, for my pressie~!!! Got this airmail for Estee. It's really very vey sweet of them to send me a card all the way from Aus. Pingz & Huiz, your cards are with me too. Aunt Joyce, Aunt Stella and Ah ma shared to get me this watch from Swatch. Another new member to my watch collection. Aunt Elaine got me the perfume that I always wanted. Incanto Shine.... I happened to chance on it when I opened her dressing cupboard so she decided to not wrap it up and gave it to me. Also another new member to my perfume collection.

I think I can be the new SK Jewellery Spokeperson. "SK Jewllery: Every woman deserves to shine." I got 2 necklaces from the 2 important men in my life. One from Daddy and the other from lovey dear. I was like asking lovey "Is it a norm for a girl to receive a necklace for her 21st birthday from her dad?" before I got the other necklace from him.

Me eating my red egg which lovey dear kindly decided to peel it for me.

Well then... Thank all who so nicely remembered my brithday. It was great receiving all your well wishes. I certainly hope like what you all sent me that all my wishes will come true this year. *lots of lOves*

June Babies Celebrations

2007-06-16T15:54:00.000+08:00

Birthday celebration with both my younger cousins. Went to Aunt Joyce's place for a bbq in the evening. Since there were three june babies celebrating birthdays, there were naturally three cakes. I had a great time with my family and lovey dear.I was glad that my younger cousins liked the balloons I got for them. All the kids were playing with them, especially TengYi. He kept insisting that the balloon was his. Aunt Elaine was like saying for his birthday, I just have to get balloon for him and he will be so delighted. Then daddy was like telling TengYi, he will buy it for him. Then TengYi was so happy that he asked daddy "Da Jiu, are you ready?" All of us were like wondering what he was asking about. Then we found out he was asking dad if he was ready to go out and buy balloon for him. Hahaha... Such a cutie...

Lovey dear was there too. Had a "hard" time asking him to go with me. Had a wonderful celebration as usual. Everyone had a great time. I had received the lovely-est presents. Time to rest, I will present the gifty tomorrow~!!! Night night, everyone.

Chermaine & Justin....

2007-06-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

Thankie for celebrating my birthday for me this afternoon. Really nice and sweet of both of you. Loved the balloons... I bet my cousins will love those that I got for them as much as I did when I received those balloons. Like what chermaine will say "Although balloons are such useless things, they really do make someone's day." I totally agree~!!!

Anyway, you know the sickening cabby uncle was like asking why I had so many balloons and I told him they were from you both. You know what his reply was? "So big already, still play with balloons arh." Sickening lor. Wanted to rudely reply "Why cannot meh? Jealous that noone give you balloons arh.." But I didn't. Just sat and kept quiet all the way home.

Then when I reached home, I was like messaging and telling everyone I got big balloons, big big balloons, 5 big big balloons. So excited about them. Wahahaha.... Once again thankie~!!! I feel so blessed having friends like you both for "hard" times.

I Am...

2007-06-15T02:14:00.000+08:00

Counting down two more days to my birthday. I know I am being loved. Gonna celebrate my birthday with 2 of my younger cousins on saturday. Been receiving calls from aunts to ask me if I am going to go for it. So the whole family is gonna have a big gathering cum celebration again. Hope to get lots lots of nice beautiful prezzies~!!!

Feeling loved again, cos mummy is ordering a birthday cake for me. Heehee... I think it's gonna be my favourite strawberry cake. Had always loved strawberry cakes since young. Chocolate cake is definitely a no-no for me. Turns me off. So I am dying for my strawberry cake. *yUmmy* If any of you wanna buy me another cake, I wont mind. I can live on the cakes...

Feeling loved even more, cos lovey dear is also gonna spend my birthday with me. Dunno what's up his sleeves. Dun wanna tell me anything. Well actually not not telling me anything. He told me a little and left me hanging there to ponder. Always like this.... Now instead of concentrating on my studies and mugging for exams, I am trying to guess what's up his sleeves.

I am now so looking forward to my birthday~!!!

I Hate...

2007-06-14T13:21:00.001+08:00

Mugging for exams... So stressful... So many topics to cover, so little time. Been studying statistics and brain. Haven't even touch on exploring psy. Arh~!!! Hate having all 3 papers within a week. 2 weeks of exams and all my papers are in 1 week.

Study, study and more study... Nothing seems to be going into my mind. How I wish I have got the super memory now. Then can memorize all the information. Oh well, back to revising... Back to those boring and lifeless books. cHrissy, jia you~!!!

Would You Still Love Me....

2007-06-13T16:32:00.001+08:00

If I was born with disabilities??? Would you still love me if I was born a mute, a deaf, or a blind? I think I am watching too much television programs. Such "funny" thoughts had filled my mind once again. But then, how would my parents' reactions be if I was born with a defect? Would they have abandon me and leave me to die? Or would they accept me for who I am? So much thoughts in my mind. After 20 years and counting, do my parents still love me and dote on me like how they did when I was just a little baby? Do they still care for their little girl? Am I still their precious gem?

Like what lovey dear would always say, "Having silly thoughts again." Another 4 more days and I am turning 21. Going to be an adult soon. Have to look at things more maturely and be more independent than usual. But there is always a child in me that desires to be loved my parents. How I wish they had more time for me. How I wish they could bring me out every weekend and have quality family time together. *Wishful thinking*

Wondering...

2007-06-11T13:20:00.000+08:00

What is the big deal about turning 21? Beginning of this year, everyone was so excited about being 21. As the months passed, I just felt that there was nothing wow about it. Birthday just comes and goes, like how it did every year. I don't even think that anybody actually remembered that I am going to turn 21 this year, besides my close friends and lovey dear.

I had even need to remind my family that I am actually turning 21 this year. Besides reminding them that I am turning 21 this year, I also had to remind them the date of my birth. How saddening can this get? The sad feeling just eats me inside.

I don't expect them to throw a big 21st birthday bash for me. Don't expect to get presents from them. Just wish that they will remember my birthday and at least get me a birthday cake or say "Happy Birthday, Gal." It is all that simple. Why is it that I feel that noone in the family remembered? Well, maybe to them, it is just another day................................

Study Study Study

2007-06-07T14:43:00.001+08:00

Had the study retreat the past 3 days. Didnt exactly stayed there because the first night I cant get to sleep for the whole night so decided not to stay. But nonetheless I got to study a few chapters. Exams are like coming next week. I feel so unprepared. Think must go study more more more.... Haiz~!!!

But the retreat was quite productive. I think YY, Carol and Chermaine managed to really study a few chapters of whatever they were studying. I think we didnt waste our money on it. Had bbq too. It was great. I think next time we can have small little getaways like that. The pic below showed us preparing for the bbq. We are so having fun~!!!

Oh ya, Chermaine... I was packing my bag this morning and I realised I brought the whole box of pop-corny home. I thought I jus took one packet. So blur le lah... My apologies for making you search high and low for it. And also thanks all for concerning for my dislocation of jaw. It's much much better already. To Eddie: I can tell that you are very very bored.

Family Celebrated Belated Mothers' Day

2007-06-05T15:59:00.000+08:00

Went lunching with my family on Sunday afternoon to celebrate belated Mothers' Day for my ah ma. We had lunch at Oriental Hotel's Melts. The place was great. The food was not bad. I love the dessert especially. There were fondue, cane floss, cakes, etc... So sinful... It was wonderful to spend time with my family.

Little TengYi is growing day by day. He is getting photogenic. Cute right... Such a darling.
Me and Wei Hang, Aunt Joyce, Aunt Stella, and Jay Sian.
Ah... Food.... I am feeling hungry again. Yum Yum~!!!
This cousiny of mine is going NS next week. See his hair now... Then you dont...
"I WANT CANE FLOSS~!!!" Dean is jumping for his. After I got mine, all the kids run to get one, but the machine was spoilt. What can I say, I am lucky or lucky. Dan with little Teng Yi. Teng Yi is so into wanting to take a photo that he kept saying "Chesse" and smiling, but he was not looking at the camera. Oh well~!!!

Dislocation of Jaw

2007-06-02T12:17:00.000+08:00

cHrissy dislocated her lower jaw yesterday during lesson. My lower jaw became loose after the extraction of my left wisdom tooth. And since then whenever I yawned, the jaw would like go out of place. Until yesterday during lesson, I yawned and it moved out of place. It was so painful. The pain went straight into the ear. The ear was ringing and i felt so bad. So what I did was to push it back in the other direction to try to locate it back. But it was so so so painful.

All was fine until I had my dinner. Was chewing until it went out of place again. But it was for a short while. Then I tried to push it back. This time when I tried to locate it, it felt that the jaw really went back in place and the pain was no longer there. Even when I chew on food, it seemed fine. Nothing had gone wrong till now. *Touch wood*

Didnt go to the doc because I felt better today. Mum told me to look at the dislocation for the next two days. If it's not any better then I shall go see the doc. But for now, all is well.

To Chermaine and Justin: Thanks for concerning. And yes, I can still talk and smile and laugh. :)

Unconstructive Yet Constructive

2007-05-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

Was supposed to go to the gym today, but in the end I didnt. Instead I ended up shopping and walking around with HuiPing and LeeHui. How unconstructive of me to not work out.... I think I desperately need a good workout. Need a good stretch and sweat everything out. Anyone interested in playing a game of badminton with me???

Anyway, it's constructive because I got a hair cut. Not exactly a hair cut. I just trimmed my hair and thinnen it. Hair was so thick and heavy that I was so irritated by it. Glad that the "load" is off my head. I also did threading today. So painful lor... Especially my upper lips area. Having done threading a few times, I still find it painful. Always never fail to drop a tear or two. Ook... I know I am always finding excuses. Well, as least my excuses work. :p

Ok, enough of all the crapping. I am off to watch tv and take my rest. *Muacks*

You-Tubing

2007-05-29T14:42:00.000+08:00

As usual when I know I should be spending time in front of my books, I am not... Terrible cHrissy~!!! Haiz... What can I do?? It's the lazy bug at work now. So decided to you-tube on some shows.

Chermaine was saying that she watched army daze, so i decided to you-tube that. Wahaha... I had such a good laugh. Now had known guys who are in NS, I really wonder do they go through the same thing as what the show had captured. Well, here's a funny clip on it.

If you are still crazy on Goong-- Princess Hours, I found a nice mv on youtube. I think it's something Gerlynn might like.

Exam Stress

2007-05-28T14:52:00.000+08:00

Look at my study table... So filled with rubbish... Argh~!!! Messy~!!! From the look of it, you can tell how stress and unorganized I am... I learnt from those who are taking environment psychology, this picture shows crowding. EXAMS ARE ROUND THE CORNER~!!! I am so gotta start revising for the 3 papers. Aaaahhhhh~!!!

Some of the items I got for my retail therapy. I know... Feeling kiddish, so decided to get some disney stuff. Kinda make me feel happier though. And also got a lip gloss from MAC. It's damn expensive, but I am loving it. And another thing... I got a adidias watch. Wahaha... Loving the purple. :) Enough said.... Back to studies...

No Money

2007-05-26T23:50:00.000+08:00

I am feeling so broke lah. Spending so much these few days or rather this month. Haiz... Brought so many things for myself. It's the retail therapy mood.

Exams coming in 3 weeks and I am like still slacking lah. 21st birthday before exams. Guess I will be spending it with my bookies. Haiz~!!! Sad case lah.... How I wish someone, anyone, will be kind enough to plan a surprise party for me. I think it will be really nice to get one. *cHrissy, dun think too much*

Okok, stop dreaming... Wake up... Time to put my head into the books again and complete my last and final lab report for the semester. Oh yah, bet most of you know that UNSW Asia closed. With that in mind, my school had been mentioning that we'll be shifting into an actual campus. All of us are crossing our fingers that we will get the one at Kay Siang. Then again, there will be pros and cons to it. Well, just have to wait for the school's notice..

Tired, Sleepy, Everything Bad

2007-05-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

I think I am having the Pre-Exam Sickness again. The flu is coming back. The body feeling bad. Need loads of sleep, loads of rest, loads of lazing around. Just dun feel like doing anything... Ah... I'm feeling so so bad... Can I have more hours in a day????

Dun feel like revising any work. Dun wanna do assignments... I just wanna play. So sian lah, celebrating birthday with books. Arh~!!! Horrible, Terrible... Why??? Why must everything happen all at once??? I need a good long holiday~!!!

Relaxation~!!!

2007-05-17T11:28:00.000+08:00

Went to Sentosa yesterday with pingz & huiz. Finally~!!! After so long, I am gng to Sentosa again. Been studying so hard that I even forgot what is relaxation. We went to the beach, found a cool spot and just hung out by the sea, basking in the sun. It was really cooling. The sun was covered by the clouds. So didnt get much of the sun. But guess what, I actually got sunburnt. So stupid lor. No sun and I got sunburnt. I think my skin is super prone to UV Rays. Anyway, I'm like complaining now about the painful skin. It sucks lah... So painful....

The Mask Behind The Smile

2007-05-14T11:25:00.000+08:00

After the last entry that I had posted, I went to bed immediately. And the next thing I did was to cry. Dunno why I am always crying these few days/months. Always going to bed, hid under my blanky and cried my eyes swollen. Sometimes there is no particular reason why I cried, the tears just flowed down like nobody's business. It's not that I am not controlling them. But I just cant contain my emotions.

I am not a girl who shows the inner me easily. I dont cry in front of people too. Not even in front of my close friends, let to say my family. Never like ppl to see the weaker side of me. It's really difficult. I am tired of wearing that strong mask, hiding all the thoughts that my heart yearns to say.

That night, I messaged a few of my good friends. I asked them "I feel like crying and need a shoulder to cry on, will you lend me yours?". Everyone of them replied "Why, what happened?", and without knowing the reason, all of them replied "yes". It's really nice to know that I have really great and caring friends around me, all willing to be there for me when I needed help.

However, I need someone to know how I am feeling without even asking me for my emotions. Someone to just be beside me, to lend me a shoulder to lean on, to sit beside me quietly and accomapny me. I realised that whenever I need someone to talk my heart out to, there's noone to turn to. Always scrolling down the phonelist and in the end, all are gone.

Think I might be suffering from depression afterall. Time to go talk to the "heart" doctor.

Disappointment

2007-05-12T20:37:00.000+08:00

I am a girl who cant deal with disappointment. Don't promise me anything, bring my hopes up high and dash them if you cant fulfill anything. Strong on the outside yet breakable on the inside. Maybe just one day, I might just break down and nothing can be done to pull me up and make me stand on my feet.

So many things going on in my mind. So many unconscious thoughts. So many things I wanna say but dare not to. Who will see beyond this mask i’m wearing that keeps the smile up there and hear the things my heart yearns to say but never dared to? Who will truly understand me and be there for me without me even having to ask or to pour those sorrows out before they know what’s troubling me? Everything seems to be a void to me...

Getting out of my comfort zone

2007-05-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

Me wanna go overseas. Been thinking about this for a very long time. Been thinking to go overseas for my studies. Maybe next year for my honours. Been in my comfort zone for too long. Someone had to learn to live away from family. Be a little more independent. Wanna see the world. Wanna experience different things.

Pace of Life

2007-05-02T19:58:00.000+08:00

A research carried out by psychologist Prof Richard Wiseman in collaboration with the UK's cultrual relations agency the British Council. Researchers discovered that the speed of walking provides a reliable measure of the pace of life in a city. Prof Wiseman wanted to see if there had been a change in the pace of life from the early 1990s when a similar study was undertaken. Results showed that the pace of life is now 10% faster than it was a decade and a half ago.

The study was conducted in cities around the world on 22 August 2006 between the hours of 11.30am and 2pm. People in Singapore came out as the fastest. Prof Wiseman said that "the psychology is basically that people's walking pace is determined by how much they think they're in a hurry, how quickly they think they should be doing things. I believed alot of it is technology driven. What's amazing is that these days you press send on an email and if someone hasnt responded in 10mins, you think 'where are they?'"

Are you always rushing around and think that 24 hours a day is not enough for use? Have you ever take time off and enjoy the environment around you? We are always rushing around and trying our best to complete tasks at hand. Even taking time to please everyone requires time. Haiz~!!! I think we must really slow down and appreciate every thing.

Are you envious of me???

2007-04-29T20:08:00.000+08:00

As quoted from HuiPing:
"We all have things about our friends that make us slightly envious. Not in a
bad way, but in a ‘Wow! I wish I had that person’s
boobs/eyes/money/relationship/nose hairs/whatever.’ So tell me what about me
makes you envy me. . . then post this in your blog and see what makes me envious
of you."

Are You Rich or Poor?

2007-04-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered by we are always complaining about the every little things that we have or dont have? Read on~!!!

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people live. They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family. On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

" It was great, Dad."

"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.

"Oh yeah," said the son.

"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.

The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."

The boy's father was speechless. Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing? Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have, instead of worrying about what we don't have. Look at things from two different perceptives. That way, you will feel happier. So stop complaining and appreciate every single thing you have! But then it's always easier siad than done.

I Am Beautiful

2007-04-16T16:40:00.000+08:00

Was just thinking... And I realised that no one had really commented or praised me being beautiful. It is not like I really need to hear "Wow~!!! You are beautiful~!!!". But sometimes it will be really nice to hear such comments. But please dont go saying this sentence to me for no reason.

Then again, I know myself that I am beautiful. I think it's all in the inner self. The self-esteem, the self-confidence... Everything boils down to how you perceived yourself. I was watching a tv programme this morning and it was showing girls with eating disorder and anxerioa. Wonder why are so many girls obessed with skinniness.... The media play a huge role in this. Showing girls with such slim bodies. Then again, it is also how each individual thinks and feels about himself/herself.

I dont deny the fact that I am fat, but I am loving myself and my body. But it doesnt mean that I am not doing any thing to get rid of the extra fats. Work it out, gal~!!! But the most important point is to love thyself. Once you love yourself, your body and your health, everyone around you will love you even more~!!!

Just some complaints...

2007-04-10T09:01:00.000+08:00

Exams results were supposed to be out yesterday, but it is not... So anxiously waiting for it to come. My lecturer already said it was approved and pended by the school. But they are taking bloody long to update and post the result. Good thing everyone passed the exams, according to my lecturer. I am just anxious to know my grades.

Remember I brought 3 goldfishs before CNY... One of them died on sunday. So sad lor... It wasnt moving when I saw it. Took it out of the water, it wasnt jumping for air. Haiz~!!! Wat to do... Threw it in the dustbin after that.

Having a test in the afternoon. Got to go revise...

Phantom of The Opera

2007-03-30T16:54:00.000+08:00

Went to watch the musical last night with my cousin. We got the circle 1 seats. Damn expensive lor. Each ticket costed $132. But my aunt paid for both of us. The musical was marvellous. It was spectacular. I love the musical and the costumes for the cast was bright. Cant explain how great it was, you all should go for it if you have the chance. Humming and singing the songs all day. I am hooked on the musical~!!!

Flu~!!! Be Gone~!!!

2007-03-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

Oh my god~!!! The damn flu is back. I really dont understand why I keep getting the flu. The blocked nose sucks. It is like coming back every 2 to 3 weeks. I dont know if it's me having too much stress or it's dad's cigarette smoke.

It is really irritating. I cant be always running to the doc for medicine. Haiz~!!! Surviving on pandanol ful. Mum is also like feeding me with all sorts of flu medicines. But I am not taking them. Dun wanna over-medicate myself on those pills. Hopefully it will get better and recover soon.

Another 3 Months of Study Again

2007-03-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

Had a 2 weeks break and now I am back to my studies. Back to another intensive period of studying. Hadnt been updating because I didnt know what to enter.

There was an earthquake today in Indonesia. I was like still sleeping around that time and was lying on the bed when I felt my bed shaking. I thought it was me having some dizziness. Then again when I turned on the tv, I saw the news about the earthquake. Haiz~!!!

Okok... Must starting researching for my assignments and read up before lectures le. Dont wanna be lacking behind again.

Happy Lunar New Year~!!!

2007-02-23T23:07:00.000+08:00

To my dearest family and friends, may the year of pig bring to all of you lots of fullness.
Full of love... Full of wealth... Full of health. Full of all that you wish for.

Happy Valentine's Day To My Special Friends

2007-02-14T20:51:00.000+08:00

I know some of you will complain why I post entry only to Estee. Ppl like asiLah, hUizZz, Pingz will sure say I bias... But then again, Estee is back only for a while mah, so must treat her a little extra nicer. For the rest of my dearest friends, I will see you all more than Estee right... This entry is for all of you. Thank you so so much for being part of my life. Thank you for being there with me during ups and downs of my life. You all deserve a big hug from me... Claim from me with you see me yeah~!!! *mUacks*

*friends are people who stay in your heart*

This entry is dedicated to Estee Ng~!!!

2007-02-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

First thing first... My name is Christine, not A... Remember that hor!!! You dont just change my name like that. So rude~!!! Humph~!!!

Wahaha... Seems like you are very bored right... Wrote me a lovely testimonial at friendster. I apologise for not going out with you often. Been tied down with exams. But it's ending on thursday so maybe wanna go out on friday then.

Let me see... You should not classify yourself as my best friend. Maybe it will be better if you had said one of my best sisters and you should be not just honoured, but VERY VERY honoured.
Today being Valentine's Day, not giving you roses though, me wanna thank you for being my friend and for the times spent together having the same timetables and cca. It was really great to have you around, although sometimes you are really annoying. I shall not say "friends forever", because I dont believe in forever and how long is forever gonna be. Rather, I shall say I cherish your friendship and may we hold this relationship dear in our hearts.

cHrissy's new pets

2007-02-13T19:44:00.000+08:00

Brought three gold fishes for myself... Been saying that I wanna get fishes for a very long time and I finally got them on sunday. New addition to my room... I am so excited about them. Wahaha... Dad nagged at me, saying gold fishes are very dirty. But it's abit too late huh. I had already brought them. So hopefully they turn out well.

*low maintence pets are better than none*

Exams again....

2007-02-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

cHrissy had been and still is busy revising for her exams that are coming next week. My apologies to all that had been asking me out and I had been turning them down for the past 2 weeks.

I will be having 2 papers on monday. Argh~!!! Going crazy soon... So so much to study... Argh~!!! Who is kind enough to help me study for exams??? Ok lah, enough of complaining.... After exams, I will spend more time with you people playing hard for my 3 weeks of holidays. Meet up soon for chinese new year hor~!!!

*what is the importance of education*

The Language of NOs

2007-01-28T23:01:00.000+08:00

I am reading this book by BJ Gallagher "Yes Lives in the Land of No". In this book, Gallagher talked about the nos is our life. The part that caught my eyes was

What Lies Behind the Language of NO?
NO doesnt come from nowhere. It
comes from feelings and perceptions, both real and imaged. It comes from Fear,
Experience, Ego, Laziness, Habits and Comfort Zone, Limited Resources amd
Competing Priorities, and Politics.
Fear -- of the unknown and of leaving comfort zones, of taking risks, of
change, of many others.
Experience -- new possibilities are filtered through negative past
experiences, "we've tried that before, and it didnt work" syndrome, "why change
things when everything is fine?"
Ego -- not wanting someone with a good/different idea to look better than
you.
Laziness -- new ideas/strategies typically involvr more work.
Habit and Comfort Zone -- it's always easier to say NO, old habits can be
very hard to break.
Limited Resources and Competing Priorities -- not enough time/money/staff,
other projects seem more important.
Politics -- personal agenda/favoritism, power struggle.

All the above made me wonder... Has my life been like that for the past couple of years? Me not wanting to step out of my comfort zone, not wanting to change a habit. And also I realised that some of the decisions I had made had more or less been the same. Is it because I am too comfortable with them and didnt want to take any risk that I kept making them? Part of me has the fear of change, yet another part wants to take risk and leave the comfort zone. How??? Confusion~!!!

The final advise is PERSEVERE~!!!

Persist in pursuing what is important.
Endure discomfort; struggle is part of the pursuit.
Rethink your strategy when you encounter NO.
Steadfastly hold true to your values and ethics.
Envision what success will look like.
Voice your intentions and keep your commitments.
Express gratitude for support from others.
Risk is essential in finding YES; be courageous.
Enjoy and celebrate every bit of progress towards YES.

Let me work towards YES~!!!

*saying yes is the key to rejecting no*

cHrissy needs more time~!!!

2007-01-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

Moving into the new version of blogspot, erm, what should I say? I like the new settings and all, but I wanna keep my old blogskin. Aiya, dun need be so troublesome. Dun wanna think for my labels. It's really a tough thing to do. So just sticking to the old blogskin....

Silly dear had an operation on monday. He has two weeks MC to rest at home. I want that too~!!! So many things to do.... Two assignments due next week. Exams before CNY. Arh~!!! I am so fussed up with all the heavy studies going on now.... Head feeling heavy again and everyone at home is sick. Haiz~!!! cHrissy drink more water and rest well~!!!

*if only a day has 30 hours*

tHe world wont stop turning

2007-01-22T11:56:00.000+08:00

Jus because someone dear in your life had passed on, it doesnt mean that the world had stopped turning. Time is ticking away and everything and everyone around you are still moving. Well, it all goes down to how you handle your emotions.

After one whole week of busyness with family matters, I finally could settle down and go back to my life. Rushing for assignments again and preparing for tests which I had missed. Everything is back to normal. All that was left was the memories and experiences.

*time is ticking away quickly*

cHrissy's great granny

2007-01-16T00:42:00.000+08:00

I know some of you might be curious to wanna know if I had typed wrongly on my previous post. "NO."--> This is my answer. I do had had a great granny. She was 104 when she passed away on sunday 14 jan 2007 at 0345. Her funeral will be held on thursday.

Being the most elderly in my family tree, I always remember her being the typical elder granny that we all see on tv. Though I am not very close to her, she had always struck me of being the nice, kind and gentle old lady that always smiles when she sees you.

Thinking back on those days when we visited her during chinese new year, she would always thought that I am the family maid. Sometimes, even me as my mum's sister. Because of old age, she could never remember much things.

Now that she has gone to a better place, I shall not dwell on my regrets for not visiting her whenever I had the time. Life has to move on for all of us. My family is coping well with the loss of a wise lady. The gem of our family. My granddad is struggling hard over this loss. So is my grandma... But time will come for all of us to accept this painful loss.

cHrissy, work hard to fulfill your 2007 resolution. "SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FAMILY"

*never wait till the last minute to tell someone that you love them*

cHrissy's great grandmother passed away

2007-01-14T19:28:00.000+08:00

Jus received news that my great grandma jus passed away. Not really sure how i am feeling now, but having to lose a relative is really saddening for me. Having read tuesday with morrie, it really did leave an impact on me. Having to face death in the face, morrie lived it to the fullest. I wondered if my great gramp had that too. Well, I shall stop for now. Gotta go to my gramps' place for the wake.

*live life to the fullest as you might never know when it will be taken away from you*

cHrissy wants a hair cut...

2007-01-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

Me wanna have a new look. Not exactly that new, but just wanna do something with my hair. My fringe is getting very very long and I am very irritiated by it. And I wanna hightlight my boring hair. Remembering that I highlighted them red last year, what colour shall I highlight this year? Mum is doing the red this year, shall not be the same as her. Maybe purple? Not the super bright purple but something like the dull yet outstanding one. I am not so sure though... Any inputs???

Had the forensic midtest today. Luckily it was not so bad. Having only to revise 3 chapters out of 6, I was so afraid that I would do badly for the short essays. I am just glad that I had attended all the lectures and was able to smoke through the questions. Back to my lab report which I had not started on it yet, will be due on friday...

*new look for a new start*

First 21st Birthday Celebration of 2007

2007-01-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

Nope, I am not the one celebrating my birthday as yet. There is about 5 more months to mine. It is still very early to celebrate and I dont want to have a super advance birthday party.

Yupp... I am speaking of one of my best secondary school classmates, WeiQi... Time really flies and this year is the year where almost all my friends are turning 21. Waaaaaahhhhhhh..... Adulthood is here~!!! OMG~!!! I cant believe it. It is finally here... Have to learn to act more like a mature person already. Well, cHrissy... Enjoy your last five months of adolescence bah....

*to accomplish great things, we must dream as well as act*

cHrissy got 2 new pairs of shoes for the new year

2007-01-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

Yupp, I got myself 2 new pairs of shoes. I believe that having a good pair of shoes for the new year means I will be walking another good year of life. Superstitious, you can call me. But walking through a new year with a good pair of shoes will bring me a good journey. So meanwhile, I am basking myself in good shoes~!!!

*the goal of life is living in agreement with nature*

cHrissy's 2007 resolutions

2007-01-01T14:45:00.000+08:00

To start off the new year, one must always have resolutions to complete for the year. But this year, I had decided that I should not put so much restrictions on myself. Therefore, there wont be any difficult and unachievable resolutions for 2007.

Lost all the extra fats in my body (which I think it requires alot of self discipline, determination and perservance). So you all being my nice nice friends and dear, must help me out in this hor...
Save up more money... Then this way, in 2 years time after uni graduation I can go for a long one month Europe holiday... Heee~!!!
Spend more time with my family and loved ones (silly dear, you are included hor~!!! dun say i never mention your name). Havent been spending alot of time when my grandparents in 2006. I must cherish the times with them when they are still around. I dun wanna regret not spending time with them when time comes.
Learn to love myself more. I have to pamper myself more. It's is not things like going for medi/pedicure, shopping for more things, etc. What I mean is getting a better lifestyle, which is getting enough sleep = 8 hours, excerising = swimming, etc...
Study harder and score distinctions in my duration of degree. I must perservance and motivate myself to work harder to get the honours invitation. And to get my PHD. Thinking far far ahead le....

I think should be all bah. Shall not put too many resolutions for the year, else if I never hit them, I will be so demoralised. So that shall be all for now... Hope that everyone will have a great 2007~!!! May good health and blessings come your way~!!!

*the best and safest thing is to keep a balance in your life, acknowledge the great powers around us and in us
if you can do that, and live that way, you are really a wise man*

cHrissy's Reflection on the Year 2006

2006-12-31T12:58:00.000+08:00

Today is the last day of year 2006. Another year had gone by just like that. Life lessons that I had learnt from many experiences and from the people I had met, had taught me to be a little more independent and mature in some aspects that i had needed to be during this past year.

One of the major shifts I had experienced was the graduation from Nanyang Polytechnic to James Cook University. Like I mentioned in my 7 Jan entry, it was a huge change for me. Going into the "Adult" world where I had to make the major decisions myself. It was a really tough time for me deciding if I would wanna go out working or continuing with my studies. Changes in my life really do scare me in a certain way. In the end, taking a psychology degree was my final decision. I thank my family for helping me making this choice and the advises they had offered me.

Second lesson I had learned from the Gunung Tahan trip. This mountain climbing cum camping trip had really pushed me to my limits. It tested my perservance and mental & physical strength. This trip had proved that if I put my heart and soul into something, I can achieve it. I can still remember the time when I finally reached the peak of Gunung Tahan. It was one of the moments that I cant forget. I endured the tiredness and went all the way up to the peak. Watching the sunrise was marvellous. It was a view not many could see. Another lesson that I had learnt was that encouragements and support from friends do go a long way. The care and concern, encouragements, and support I got from my tahan mates was in great amount. Maybe one day, I will conquer another mountain. (Say say only... Jus kidding~!)

I had also learnt that things in life are not for granted. I have to decide what I want in life and have got to stick with my decision. Some of you might know what I am talking about there. After the "shock" I had been through, I think there are something more to life. It's not just about me myself. It comes with everything and everyone around me. Whatever things/decisions I do/make will more or less affect someone/something. So learning to make a decision is really not easy. It comes with terms and conditions.

Lastly, I just wanna let all of you, my friends, know that I'm blessed in knowing all of you in my life. Without you guys, my past year wont be wat I had expereniced. Thank you for being part of my memories and experiences!

To my family, thank you for being there for me. For being my pillar of support. For all the encouragements, care and concern, and everything... I love you all so much~!!!

Finally, this being the last entry of 2006, I leave you all with a quote written by Eddie Poon for all LaoJ-ao before we left NYP. And also great pics of me and you all taken in 2006. Have a great New Year Eve~!!!

Cited

"Friday, March 24, 2006
Cheers to all of you!! (Lao J-ao) Featuring Eddie Poon
Ed asks.. Will there be forever?
Eddie - I do not knowIs there a possibility?
Eddie - Maybe If its a fact, it would leave no room for possibilities.. Just like Da Xiong, waking up to realise Doraemon is non-existence. Selfish I must, cause friends like you guys are truly hard to catch.10-20years down the road, I hope all of our friendship stay genuine =)
-Eddie Stay Cool!The test of time is just beginning =) 03/24/2006"

*we can draw lessons from the past, but we cannot live in it*

Merry Christmas To All

2006-12-24T11:58:00.000+08:00

Christmas is a time for love and fun,
A time to reshape souls and roots and skies,
A time to give your heart to everyone
Freely, like a rich and lavish sun,
Like a burning star to those whose lonely sighs
Show need of such a time for love and fun.

For children first, whose pain is never done,
Whose bright white fire of anguish never dies,
It's time to give your heart to every one,

That not one angel fall, to hatred won
For lack of ears to listen to her cries,
Or arms to carry him towards love and fun,

Or friends to care what happens on the run
To adult life, where joy or sadness lies.
It's time to give your heart to everyone,

For God loves all, and turns His back on none,
Good or twisted, ignorant or wise.
Christmas is a time for love and fun,
A time to give your heart to everyone.
--Nicholas Gordon

To all my dearest friends and families, have a merry merry christmas~!!!

*make all you can, save all you can, give all you can*

4 More Days To Christmas

2006-12-21T10:44:00.000+08:00

Yupp yupp, the season of the year is coming....

So excited about it. It's not like as if I will get alot of presents but I just like Christmas.

This also means that the year is ending soon and another year will arrive in a blink of eye.

So many assignments to complete and all of them are due next month. I guess I will spend the whole of my next week break to finish at least two of them. *keeping my fingers crossed*

So many gatherings next week too. For now, I have got three gatherings on hand. One with my secondary school student counsellors. Two with Estee and the SU gang. Three with my secondary school classmates.

So broke as it is the end of the month. Hopefully I can survive till next week with all the gatherings bah.

So I am going to take my bath now and go to Ikea to get some stuff and will be going for the last lecture of the year before the break for the holidays.

*a compliment is a gift, not to be thrown away carelessly,

unless you want to hurt the give*

Candy Cane

2006-12-18T11:31:00.000+08:00

I love eating candy cane.

Why? Because it's only once in a year that I get to eat it.
Now, you must be thinking why I am telling you all these? Because I was harping on one yesterday. Was out with dear and me got a candy cane from mini toons. I was thinking of eating during the movie "eragon" but to find out that the sales girl did not put my candy cane into the shopping bag. I was so so "angry". Couldn't eat my candy cane. So I was harping on it during the whole show and decided that I should go back to mini toons to claim it back. Surprisingly, the candy cane was still at the counter. If she had put it back onto the shelf, I am so gonna complain. Like as if I would.

Anyway, dear was saying that I was petty over the candy cane. Yea, I kinda agree so. But it's my once in a year "CANDY CANE". Of cos I would be harping on it. Call me childish and petty if you want. But I dont care.

I am loving my candy cane now.

Jus a simple introduction of how candy cane came about.
In recent years, apocryphal origin stories for the candy cane have become popular. Usually they suggest the candy cane was invented by an American Protestant, usually described as being an unnamed candy maker in 1870s Indiana, to represent Jesus Christ. These stories typically suggest that the white of the candy cane represents Jesus's purity, the bold red stripes represents crucifixion.
The white in the candy cane is to for his purity, one bold red stripe for the blood he shed, three thin red stripes for the Holy Trinity, and the general shape for the J in his name and/or to represent the cane of a shepherd.
Once a man named Jesus invented the candy cane. He tried to make a gun and acedintely mixed in peppermints. He tasted it and said it was the best thing invented since heaven.
--From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

*you must give some time to your fellow men
even if it's a little thing, do something for others
something for which you get no pay but the privilege of doing it*

In Tutorial Now

2006-12-15T09:18:00.000+08:00

Wahaha... I am in tutorial now. Watching a series. Had been watching the series since the first tutorial. The series is a recording of 20 kids in 1960s and they were interviewed when they were seven. Today's show is when they were 28. It's really interesting, cos you can see that the children really grow up and their ideas/thinking/mindset/perpective really change. Some of them do keep their childhood dreams when they became an adult. The series goes all the way till the children grow up to 48 years old.

My thought of the day: How much do we change? Do we really "give up" of childhoood dreams because of the circumstances? My childhood dream is to be a teacher. Am I going to be one in the future? What is going to happen in the future? Who knows? Nobody knows what's going to happen tomorrow, what more can we say for the future?

*the first step to getting the things you want out of life is this:

deceide what you want*

Comments to Damien's Entry

2006-12-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

Damien wrote a post of me at his bloggie. Funny and interesting things he said.
But me got some comments. Nonetheless, it's good entertainment. Thanks Damien...

This picture shows Christine Da jie and me holding our caricatures
while attending a PAYM lunch along with Asilah, Hui Ping, Siti, Eddie and Farhan.

Name of product: Christine Da jie

Characteristics: Dedicated, Enthusiastic, Aspiring and Decisive LEADER.
*THANK YOU FOR THE GOOD COMMENTS*

History in the making: For the past few years, she has led me to more and more challenges. For example, she challenges me to take up the National Youth Achievement Award (and I swear I will never do it again). In addition, she introduced me to a MUCH more motivating leader and savior, Ms Ong Ying Shya. I certainly have not one else but Christine to thank for she has enlighten me on what is fear.
*OBJECTIONS: HUIPING WAS THE ONE WHO INTRODUCED DAMIEN TO YINGSHYA, BUT IT IS GOOD TO LEARN AND FACE FEAR IN THE EYE*

In the following year, I just happen to be slacking at home just before my birthday. Suddenly, I received a call from Christine. "Hey Damien, we got free tickets to the latest movie, Happy Feet." Being a cheap bastard, I naively joined them. From then on, I realized that I am one of the YEC members. Christine has once again taught me that something about life. "There's no such thing as free lunch in this world."
*OBJECTIONS: HUIPING WAS STILL THE ONE WHO ASKED ME TO CALL YOU. I AM AN INNOCENT PARTY.*

Unlike our previous product, this product has been sold to a gentlemen named Desmond for a VERY HIGH PRICE OF 25. 000 000 000 000 000 Rupiah. So congrats to Mr. Desmond!!! WOOO HOOOO!!!! Please bring the product to Hougang Avenue 8, Buangkok Green Centre if this product were to suffer from any malfunctioning. International Warranty of 18 years starting from year 1986.
*OBJECTIONS: WARRANTY ENDED! BUT PRODUCT STILL SUFFERING FROM MALFUNCTIONING.*

*sometimes the measure of friendship isnt your ability to not harm but your capacity to forgive the things done to you and ask forgiveness for your own mistakes*

cHrissy is going crazy

2006-12-06T11:28:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just have to let it out. This semester is so STRESSFUL!!! All major assignments are due next month and I haven't even started on one proper. I am so dead. Bad bad bad... I have to start on one today. So much readings and researches to do. How I wish I am a local uni student. NUS and NTU students are having their holidays now.

Sigh... I am also having the bad blocked nose and was down with a slight fever last night. Having a bad headache now, but cant get to sleep. So here I am, awake and up trying to do some research. Hopefully some of the work can be done by the end of today.

Oh yah, I was on the phone with Estee two days back and she was saying that she'll be arriving back to sg on 30 Dec 2006. Her flight should be landing around 7.30pm. She said she wanna meet us out for dinner. Dinner ≠ Swensens, Cafe Cartel, etc. She wants local food. This "gathering" will be confirmed again. But please keep that day free for ~~MingWei~~ our dear Estee.

*it is wise to apply the oil of refined politeness to the mechanisms of friendship*

cHrissy felt left out

2006-12-05T00:57:00.000+08:00

Just a thought about it. I felt left out in my class. Seems like everyone got their own click and I am like the odd one out. It is not like I am a unfriendly person or someone that ignore anyone. I am not keeping a low profile but just felt out of place. I dunno about the rest of them, but I do feel it this way. Well, maybe it will just take time for me to adapt into their "world".

Also for my gang of friends... I know that everyone has their life in different fields. But it seems to me that we are all drifting away from each other. Maybe it is my feelings. But then again, I cant expect much. Life has to move on.

Well, cHrissy... Tomorrow will be a better day.

*never explain-- your friends do not need it and your enemies will not believe you anyway*

PAYM Convention 2006

2006-12-04T11:53:00.000+08:00

The PAYM Convention was held at Suntec last Sat. There are some of the pics.

I had a great time with the rest of them. Looking forward to meeting the gang soon.

*dont be discouraged by a failure
it can be a positive experience
failure is, in a sense, the highway to success,

inasmuch as every discovery of what is false leads us to seek earnestly after what is true,

and every fresh experience points out some form of error

which we shall afterwards carefully avoid*

The LaoJ-ao Gathering

2006-12-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

The LaoJ-ao all appeared for Damien's birthday celebration last saturday.

Wow... Finally a gathering after the last SU chalet. Too bad Estee is in Australia.

*to accomplish great things, we must dream as well as act*

Blog Closing

2006-11-29T15:49:00.000+08:00

Nah~!!! Dun be shocked by the title of this entry. I wont close my bloggie. I dunno if this is a trend/copy-cat effect or people just got sick and tired of blogging or some other reasons.

Say many years back, all of us or rather most of us started blogging because it was a trend and we copied each other by having our own blogs and started sharing the addresses. Then in the recent one year, one-by-one people started to close their blogs. Should I put it as people got sick and tired of blogging? Or maybe they are too lazy to blog? Or there are some other reasons? I don't know but am interested to find out. But what people do is their business and I wont wanna question them. I rather they willing tell me the reasons.

The forensic psy lesson last night mentioned about the copy-cat effects. Ask me what is the copy-cat effect? Give you an example: One fine afternoon, a 34 years old man decided to commit suicide. His method of taking his own life is by jumping down the MRT tracks when the train comes into the station. The next day, the news came out on the newspapers headlines. Then for the next 2 weeks or so, there will be cases of people committing suicide by jumping off the platform. This is what we call the copy-cat effect. People copying another person for an action.

Is the blogging world having the copy-cat effect? Or is it just that blogging is no longer a trend?

Just my 10 cents worth. Think about it....

*friendship make prosperity more shining and lessens adversity by dividing and sharing it*

2 New Items

2006-11-28T12:20:00.000+08:00

I brought a new diary for the next year. Loving it so much now.

Cant wait to start using it and put down the important dates in it.
Mum brought me a new tigger toy. Haha... Actually it's me who pestered her to get it for me de. Just find it cute, so wanted to have it lor. Dad is complaining that I have got too many toys le.

*the meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances:
if there is any reaction, both are transformed.*

Children Cancer Foundation Singapore

2006-11-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

Me wanna be a volunteer with the Children Cancer Foundation. Anyone of you interested? Linkie to check out the webbie here

Dad is back and so is the car. Had been driving round and the right feet kinda hurt due to the past sprain. But it's not serious. I think the stomach problem is more serious bah. I know, I will take good care of myself de. No worries~!!!

*everyone has the obligation to ponder well his own specific traits of character
he must also regulate them adequately and not wonder whether someone else's traits might suit him better
the more definitely his own a man's character is, the better it fits him*

Art Attack

2006-11-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

Havent been updating cos there is really nth much to update. Life is so rountie. It's kinda boring at times. Nothing much to do and to expect. Maybe I should go take up a course or something to enrich my life abit. Anyway, I was trying this webbie "JacksonPollock". It is interesting and allows you to let your creative juice out. Well, just go try it out. Click on the left mouse to change the color.

*people grow through experience if they meet life honestly and courageously
this is how character is built*

PAYM Community Service Luncheon

2006-11-19T13:10:00.000+08:00

Went to Novotel Clarke Quay Hotel ytd afternoon for a luncheon. The pre-lunch activity was a comic drawing done by 2 artists. So we queued and got our drawings.

We had our pictures drawn by a comic artist

Me and Damien got our pictures drawn by the same artist.

*the best and safest thing is to keep a balance in your life, acknowledge the great powers around us and in us
if you can do that, and live that way, you are really a wise man*

cHrissy's hari raya lunch at asiLah's place

2006-11-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

Asilah's Hari Raya Lunch

The Host and Me

*anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were*

cHrissy brought flowers for herself

2006-11-10T18:18:00.000+08:00

Went to cold storage today, saw some nice flowers, so decided to get them for myself. Lovely, aint they~!!!

*personality can open doors, but only character can keep them open*

cHrissy is blogging for the sake of blogging today

2006-11-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

I am actually so surprised that noone had left me a note of my taggy for this whole day. Lol~!!! Not that I am waiting to see any of your note or whatsoever. But still, it's amazing that none of you actually left one. Wahaha~!!! Peaceful for the day. Ok, now that I had mentioned it, dun start flooding and spaming it hor.

Today is Dan's bday. Didnt celebrate much, just went for dinner with him and mum at JP Fish & Co. Mum's lunar bday is also this day. Anyway, being a nice nice sis, I didnt get him any present and didnt sing him a bday song. So nice hor... How you wish you got a sis like me right. Wahaha~!!! *Evil grins*

The interesting part is that after dinner, me went NTUC to get some stuff. Surprisingly me met mingwei there. I didnt even notice him lor. He called out to me first. Like the most least likely place that I will meet him there, he was there. Estee, I bet you must be missing your "hubby" right. Can see that he slim down le, somemore look more tan than the other time. I think can compare him to weiming le. Both of them can fight for the "who's the tannest" position.

Mum is gng to Genting with granny and aunt tml. She will be back on Monday. So for the weekend, the house will be mine and dan to create a chaos. Wahahaha~!!! Freedom of everything. No nagging for the next 3 days. Horray~!!!

Happy Birthday Mum & Dan~!!!

*character is like a tree and reputation like its shadow

the shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real things*

cHrissy likes forensic psychology

2006-11-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

Had the first lesson on forensic psychology last night. I mus say it was pretty interesting. Although it was a bit dry and boring for the first lesson, as it was all about introduction to forensic psychology and the singapore court system, etc.... The lecturer is one of the highest position forensic psychologist in the police force. He was talking about most of the cases he handled, example the little girl Huang Na case. Nevertheless, he will talk until go out of topic de lor. Anyway, still interesting. I am looking forward to next night lecture.

*children, dear and loving children, can alone console a woman for the loss of her beauty*

cHrissy's first day for the new semester

2006-11-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

First day of school is so boring. Going through chapter 1 of the book that had been covered last semester. Why??? Because the class have the new nov intake students taking the module with my class. So it was like half of the class was bored out today. We are not even planning not to attend lecture next week, which is covering chapter 2. But anyway, I am looking forward to tml night lesson of forsenic psychology. So excited~!!!

Went to VivoCity yesterday with my 二姑姑 and 小姑姑. It was super crowded. My 小姑姑 was like saying if you put a bomb at Vivo on a weekend, half of sg will be gone. But anyway, she was joking. The place is not super big lah. Just walking in circles. The shops are not a big woha~!!! Jus all the normal shops we find along orchard rd. Spent 5 hours there with them cos we were really shopping or rather both my aunts were shopping.

After which when to gramps' place for steamboat dinner. Elise will be flying off to Perth this coming saturday for studies for the next one year to do some foundation course and after which decide on which uni to go to take her health science degree. All the best yah, gal~!!!

Oh yah, coming to Daniel. He failed his jc one and needs to retain for one year to get his foundations right. That's not the main point. The main thing is that he is crazy enough to quit jc and want to go into poly. I was like super mad at him. Told him last year not to do stupid things like gng to jc if he dun wanna work hard. Now wanna waste 2 more years jus to go take a diploma in poly. Haiz~!!! Dun care him lah. Mum also approve him of quitting jc and gng poly. So if mum approves, what else can sis say....

Back to my reality, I am getting all ready for the new semester. Taking 3 modules and timetable is quite packed. But if any of you wanna call me out, just let me know lor. I will check my timetable again. :)

*the sound of a kiss is not so loud as a cannon, but its echo lasts a great deal longer*

Thanks for asking cHrissy out

2006-10-31T13:55:00.000+08:00

Had been out with pingz and eddie on friday to orchard and then to kbox ytd. Quite cool... Been staying home most of the time and finally someone asked me out. Thanks to pingz who called on friday and Eddie who msned on monday. Pingz finally finished doing all her reports and had time to meet out. So off we went to orchard to walk walk. Managed to get Ed who wanted to get stationary but didnt. Huizzz didnt meet us cos she went to catch a movie with her friends. Movie more impt to her than us lor. Went had a super sumptuous dinner at PS Manhattan Fish Market. Initally we met at FarEast Plaza then walked all the way down to PS cos pingz wanted to see samsung phone and ed suggested PS. After dinner, we walked all the way back to orchard to ease the full stomach.

Ytd went to kbox with them. Ed lor... When I came online, he msned me and said he was very free and wanted to go kbox. Wahaha... Only had 2 hours of lessons and was done for the day. So suggested that he came down to jurong east kbox as both me and pingz were near je. I really salute him lor. Came all the way down to je without a complain and was the first to reach. Surprising~!!! Pingz self-declared no classes for the day, so 3 of us went kbox. Anyway, thanks you both for asking me out. Else I will be struck at home for the whole 2 weeks of holidays. Call me out again soon~!!!

To all the LaoJ ao: Do you think it's time we remove ourselves from the SU blog? Just a thought... I was thinking we should move on from the SU blog. Any comments??? Remember it's just a thought.

*the soul answers never by words, but by the thing itself that is inquired*

Dreams

2006-10-24T13:08:00.000+08:00

I read this from somewhere....
"Somebody once told me that when you see someone you are missing in your dreams, it is not just because you want to see him/her. It is because he/she also misses you so much as well. In fact, his/her desire leaves his/her body and flies into your dreams"

To all my friends.... Thank you for all your concerns. I am doing great. I cant because of one idiot then dont go out and stay home all the time right. No worries about me. Thank you....

My muslim friends, Selamat Hari Raya~!!! asiLah, fasting over le. Dun eat too much and gain back those weight. Heehee.... Take care~!!!

*beauty is one of the rare things that do not lead to doubt of God*